Building a New House

“Sadly, the body of Christ has often failed to see trauma as a place of service…I think a look at suffering humanity would lead to the realization that trauma is perhaps the greatest mission field of the twenty-first century.” – Diane Langberg Almost eleven years have passed since Tom’s diagnoses: Mycobacterial Avium Complex (MAC), Bronchiectasis,…

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Tasting Transcendence

“How was your son’s wedding?” someone asks, and Tim and I exchange glances, hoping the other can supply adequate words. We try to describe the beauty, the goodness, and the joy of the celebration, but our words fall short for all of what our hearts are holding.

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Knitting Through Grief to Gratitude

When my friend Ted died from esophageal cancer, he was my seventh friend to die in seven years. I was bereft. Ted and I had been close friends for thirty years. By his generosity, he inspired me to be generous, and he also fostered my love of travel. Because of him, I have had some…

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Collecting Stories

“I’ve never told anyone this,” she whispered and leaned across the cafe table. She proceeded to share the harder, truer side of her birth story–the story of when she felt powerless, voiceless, and ignored while laboring with her first child. Two years later, she still felt confused. Her baby was healthy. Her body physically recovered…

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A Time for Everything

It’s 3:30 a.m. I’m tossing a turning again, beads of sweat rolling between my shoulder blades and breasts…again. I forgot to take magnesium when I was winding down for the evening…again. I’m dreading the alarm clock going off in just a few short hours and waking up groggy to the never-ending list of tasks that…

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The Best Medicine

When I feel sick, I desperately want reprieve from the symptoms that ail me. Often my sickness manifests in the form of anxiety or depression.

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Yes And

“You are becoming an Enneagram 7 in your second half of life,” my husband says with a knowing smile after I share my plans to apply for tickets to be in the studio audience of Saturday Night Live. As an Enneagram 2, I have spent hours during my first half of life reading people’s microexpressions…

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Mercy

“I am not nearly as much fun as I was a year ago.” I made this statement to a friend after she asked what I’ve observed as the biggest change in myself since I started working as a chaplain. Sitting with others in the depths of their despair, pain, loneliness, and lack of resources is…

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Journaling Gratitude Through a Crisis

My son bought me a gratitude journal this past Christmas. I’ve always recommended the use of gratitude journals but, admittedly, thought that I didn’t need them since I trend toward realistic optimism as my normal modus operandi.   However, this was the year that started out…weird. From the beginning moments of 2024, I started asking…

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