Collecting Stories

“I’ve never told anyone this,” she whispered and leaned across the cafe table. She proceeded to share the harder, truer side of her birth story–the story of when she felt powerless, voiceless, and ignored while laboring with her first child. Two years later, she still felt confused. Her baby was healthy. Her body physically recovered…

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Keeping Watch

“I don’t want to die,” I say with a mix of terror and fortitude, my voice quivering as I look into my counselor’s kind eyes. I am processing a consultation with a urogynecologist over a proposed reconstructive surgery intended to repair my prolapsed bladder and remove my uterus, the space that has nourished and held…

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Sweet Surrender

“Are you done yet?” my body asked me. “No,” I said. And I would continue to say no for the next 52 hours. My first baby, a daughter named Harbor, was born October 10, 2017, at 5:27 p.m. She was born amid oxygen masks, frantic monitors, IVs, doctors, nurses, midwives, a disappearing heartbeat, and a…

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