A Fourth Dimension

When you’re a child you learn there are three dimensions Height, width and depth Like a shoebox Then later you hear there’s a fourth dimension Time –Ron Padgett My husband knows I’m in a bad place emotionally when I start texting him Zillow listings of houses for sale. He knows the situation is especially severe…

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Live the Questions

“Be patient toward all that is unsolved in your heart and try to love the questions themselves, like locked rooms and like books that are now written in a very foreign tongue.” – Rainer Maria Rilke A few weeks ago, as I drove my son to camp, he asked, “Mommy, how much did I cost?”…

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Wine and Inquisition

Several months ago I received a text from my friend, Christina, inviting me to a Mother’s Day luncheon at her home. The word “luncheon” immediately conjured images of ladies dressed in lace, pearls, and hats belonging to British royalty. After a lengthy career as a military physician, Christina now has the time to pour her…

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The Deconstructed Gospel

Be curious, not judgmental…Re-examine all that you have been told… dismiss that which insults your soul…And your very flesh shall be a great poem. –Walt Whitman I’ve never met anyone more boring and miserable than Christians. Seriously, no one seems to hate life more than Christians. In fact, the church made me hate humanity. Ugh…did…

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The Vegas Dilemma

I was in Vegas earlier this month for a surgical nursing workshop. On the way back to the airport, I asked our Uber driver if he minded if I ate in the car. He thanked me for asking and said he didn’t mind. Then he told us about a passenger who’d once asked him if…

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Bar Joke

“Find what you love and let it kill you.” – Charles Bukowski Three nurses and a radiology resident walk into a bar. They are young, single, female military officers who gather on weekends to drink cheap wine, eat overpriced sushi, and commiserate about their love lives (or lack thereof). Picture a scene from Grey’s Anatomy…

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Sleeplessness and Spaces Too Big for Me

  Creativity is living in possibility and abundance rather than limitation and scarcity. –CJ Lyons I woke this morning at 4am. I’ve struggled with insomnia for years, so I know this hour well. 4am is no-man’s-land: it’s too late to take a sleep aid, but too early to get up and feel good about it.…

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God Loves Losers

Seven years ago, I sat in a church service in California and watched a presentation put on by Celebrate Recovery, a 12-step program that was commemorating their one-year anniversary at our church.

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Weird Company

There is the question of bearing witness, of being yourself seen by yourself, & seen clearly, cleanly, without weapon or bible in hand; as this was the wish, the sturdy & not-so-secret wish of those who named us— –David Rivard This past summer, I found myself in a church meeting surrounded by eight other congregants,…

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