Still Soaring

Am I where I’m supposed to be? Do I have the inner strength, gentleness, and wisdom to venture out once again into the unknown?

Yes, I believe I do. I’ve started a new opportunity on a team where I’m quite certain I’m the oldest. The team I’m a part of is at least 10 to 15 years younger than I am. But the energy that surrounds me is magnificent! The positivity, learning, kindness, laughter, and differences in ages and support is exhilarating. On the days when I don’t feel like I have anything left to give, I realize I still do if I simply change my mindset. It reminds me of the person running the race and feeling like she has nothing left to give. All of a sudden she reaches the last 200 yards and is in a full sprint.

I want our boys to know no matter what season they’re in or how old they are: the journey is always worth it. I feel like a wiser, stronger, unstoppable version of myself entering her freshman year of a new chapter in her life and I’m loving it, absolutely loving it. 

Although I will readily admit there are still some days where I feel like “I’m just livin’ on a prayer” (to quote Bon Jovi), I’m loving those days as well. I’m a wiser, older, more beautiful woman who’s more aware of her well-being now than ever before. No, I can no longer run 10 miles, but I can still run if I need to. Yes, my bones make noises when I climb up and down the stairs, but I can still climb those stairs. I’ve learned how to just say, “No,” without providing a reason why. It turns out it’s as simple as responding with, “I just can’t do that right now.” I’m learning to be still; to be aware; to simply enjoy the life I’ve been given. 

Every morning as I see the sun rising over the greenbelt, I remind myself, “It’s time to fly. Your wings are still there and can take you anywhere you want to go. You just have to be more aware and have belief in yourself.”    

“It’s taken me a long time to realize awareness is simply noticing (watching) a thought or feeling and moving on” (Dr. Joe Dispenza).

Each of us has within ourselves the ability to be an instigator of change. We can either be the architect of change, or we can let change happen to us. Venture into the unknown, take that small risk, say a kind word, extend a helping hand, make a new connection. It’s that little feeling of fear we all experience every single day in one form or another that reminds us we are human—but we’re not alone. 

When the winds are gustier than they’ve ever been, or I feel like the water is rushing in and I can’t find the surface, even then I know I’m still surrounded by love, courage, kindness, friendships, and smiles. All I truly have to do is be more aware, look around, take a deep breath and realize it’s just a breeze, just a drop of rain—and move on.

Just take a breath, don’t forget /
Hang on to His promises /
He wants you to know /
You’re an Overcomer /

– Mandisa

Tina Huey is a mom of two fantastic kids and wife of her hero, who also happens to be an incredible dad and husband. She is an avid reader, and a life long learner. She enjoys exercising. She loves to laugh—to find the ridiculous in adversity. She is passionate about life and living it to the fullest, being the best version of herself, and helping others in a positive way so we can all make this world a better place.