The light has faded out of my eyes
Where it once burned alive
Until a series of moments
I wouldn’t want
Made me live them.
“You’re evil inside”
Chanted my darkness tinged experiences
A few seconds turned decades
Pushed my fire
Until even I had a hard time seeing it.
Assumptions of my inner landscape
Forced into my view
Until a false me was all I could see.
A little girl
In her hands
While her eyes
For us to heal.
I invited her last week
To the present safety of the now me
And she came bringing terror
Trying to take over
And convince me to stop
I feel her burning questions
And oh how I love her
Giving what I’ve received from Love:
Unalone space to cry
Letting her choose
To exist untrapped
And she tests me
So I give her
The safety she craved and was blamed for.
And if you must
Ignite the sky with your essence.
I’ll already be there with mine
And we will burn away the lies together
Until what remains is wholeness
And the day will dawn bright
Through our eyes again.
Hannah Umphress lives outside Denver, Colorado with her husband and two children. She enjoys finding and contributing to the beauty around her in the form of authentic poetry, a meaningful conversation or a well-placed joke. She believes God might be a giggler and that it’s good for the soul to have inside jokes with Him.