This Just Isn’t Working for Me.

My Tuesdays now include watching…I mean playing with, laughing, teaching, listening to…my 4 year old granddaughter Isabelle. She is a very smart, observant 4 yr old.

Recently, I let her play a game on my iPad. She was sitting at the kitchen table playing when my case/stand that was supposed to be propping up the iPad for her kept falling.

She let me know several times it was falling then declared, “Nana, you need to buy a new case. This one just isn’t working for me!” To which I responded, while trying to stifle my giggles, that I had already ordered one and it was on its way.

As I pondered (and giggled) about what she said I thought, you know, she’s right! How many times do I think nope, this just isn’t working for me.

There are things in my life right now where “this just isn’t working for me.” I find my heart feeling a wide range of things…anger, sadness, loss, grief, fear.

I read a devotion by Sarah Young “Jesus Calling”. She wrote, “My Peace is the treasure of treasures: the pearl of great price. It is an exquisitely costly gift, both for the Giver and the receiver. I purchased this Peace for you with My blood. You receive this gift by trusting Me in the midst of life’s storms.”

“My peace is the treasure of treasures…”

“You receive this gift by trusting Me in the midst of life’s storms.”

“Lean on, trust in, and be confident in the Lord with all your heart and mind and do not rely on your own insight or understanding. In all your ways know, recognize, and acknowledge Him, and He will direct and make straight and plain your paths.”
—Proverbs 3:5–6 Amplified Version

These are the things I want to hold in my heart when “this just isn’t working for me” is shouting in my mind.

I look forward to the next lesson I will learn from Isabelle and what lies ahead on this journey with my three sons (and grandkids).

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Deanna Sturgeon lives in Michigan with her husband of 31 years. A mother of three boys and 4 grandchildren, she loves playing with her grandkids, spending time with her family and friends, camping, watching the waves at the beach, and reading. She is learning to embrace what wild Jesus has for her through love, dreams, hope and laughter.