Present Company Not Excluded

Hello everyone! It looks as if most of you are here so I would like to go ahead and get started.  Thank you for gathering on such short notice. We have an important topic that we need to discuss today.

I believe each of you have at least met one another previously however time has passed and a few of you have changed since the last time we worked together. Let’s take a couple go around the room and state your name.

Joy. Regret. Fear. Anxiety. Anticipation. Sadness. Insecurity. Sorrow. Grief. Hope. Faith. Stress. Confusion. Anger. Excitement. Happiness. Loss. Depression. Guilt. Acceptance. Irritability. Ambivalence. Moodiness. Frustration. Resentment. Loneliness. Bravery. Doubt. Love. Curiousity. Nostalgia. Courage. Memory. Peace.

Thank you. Who do we have sitting in the corner over there? Gratitude. Oh good, I am so glad you are here. Will you come join the rest of us in the circle? You are a very important part of this.

The purpose of this gathering today is to give you the most recent update on our host and to remind you of your unique role. It looks like we have representatives from each of the vital areas present: the mind, the heart, and the body. I cannot stress to you enough the importance that each of you knows and believes you belong here and that you are necessary for this project.

As you recall, the setting for our story for the last six years has been a city in the southwest region of Michigan. This eclectic location, close to Lake Michigan, has provided a lovely backdrop for every season and story experienced during the time that our characters have lived here. The primary characters include our host, her husband, and their two children.

Their family has been made during their time here, and they know a little bit more of who they are and what they are about now. During the last few years, the challenges and obstacles have multiplied. Our host and her husband have grown in recognizing their need for family and respite which leads us to the next turn in the plot, a location change.

Sometime this summer, our setting will move back to south, central Texas, our host’s hometown.  Stress, Anxiety, Insecurity, Anticipation, Hope, and Ambivalence, each of you have been obviously present recently as you are intimately walking with our host while she and her husband are applying for jobs that will need to be in place to facilitate their journey back. Each of you have seamlessly taken your place as the primary emotion and then stepped back when it is time for another one to fill the space within our host.

As the time in Michigan comes to a close, I have noticed Regret and Anger highlighting all of the missed opportunities and experiences due to financial resources and family dynamics. Nostalgia and Memory, you are walking nearby recalling weekend excursions, holidays, and the unique richness each season has held. There has been grounding and fortitude as Acceptance and Curiosity continue to shift and readjust to every unexpected turn in the road. Sadness and Love, the way that you are dancing together is captivating especially as you create tears which seem to be accompanying every goodbye.

Depression and Fear, you creep along with her thoughts about starting over with all the specialized support each child requires. These thoughts appear to be uniting mind and body in ways that feel crippling and exhausting at times, and that is okay.

Bravery, Courage, Faith, and Hope, you are creating a spectacularly strong springboard that continues to catch and rebound our host back into this great adventure and it is because of you that she is able to walk forward, day by day.

Sorrow and Grief, your time is coming. Be waiting offstage for the moments that are so very close to her heart. Your arrival will accompany packing up her home, leaving her job, and saying goodbye to some of the most precious friends that have ever touched her soul.

Gratitude, thank you for remaining constant despite numerous assaults. You have bred joy and celebration in this most difficult season of life.

This woman is living whole-heartedly and there are days when many of you are called to engage and you feel like too much for her. In these moments you notice her isolated and often weeping. Other days, she doesn’t know exactly what she is feeling and Moodiness, Irritability, and Resentment sneak in also leaving her isolated and alone for a time. During these times, she sometimes will curse you or scream at you, try not to take it personally. The hope is that eventually sweet Peace will fill her days again in surprisingly unexpected ways.

DSC_0533Bethany Cabell is a Texas transplant, residing in Michigan with her husband and their two young boys.  A lover of beauty, she lives life chasing after wide-open spaces: sharing her heart with others, in relationship with Jesus, and through music and photography. She tells her story here. &